Reply to u0.woli_:

Sorry, you became victim to my ranting.... that wasn't good my apologies. Storm it. I need to go to bed..... But also for artworks yeah, vent artworks always been here since I started on gp. And I use a lot of symbolism in all my writing and art for stuff I've been through....

Anyways my apologies for ranting, probably was not wanted but... well opened the floodgates. Yeah no, not ok, too much stuff...

Reply to 🩵AKITA ROMERO🩷:

it wasn't that. There was no control, no escape, and it wouldn't stop....Plus my school sucks at dealing with that stuff so apparently I was also being screamed at for not going down and grabbing something at an assembly, plus a teacher yelling- And no one cared except close friends....

Plus I've just been dealing with a lot... Also vent artworks were always present! Art's one of my major coping mechs, and I have wired headphones that block EVERYTHING, so I tend to just use digital for art and when my headspace is f'ed up, I don't have the spoons to track down my storming stylus.

Reply to 🩵AKITA ROMERO🩷:

Oh and been having what is suspected to be meltdowns lately! Yay! Well actually had then when younger I think but uh... hit a... really bad one a few days ago, and a couple more since.... It was by far the scariest thing I've experienced, and that's saying something coming from someone who was there when their own sister died (yes yes I need to go to therapy, working on it...). So much noise, processing basically went down, couldn't even control my own body, breaking down, so much noise, it hurt, and well... it was absolutely terrifying. And it wasn't a panic attack, because I know how those go...

Reply to 🩵AKITA ROMERO🩷:

I hyperanalyze everything yet cannot understand simple things that I have to know for managing life. The most random things set off a breakdown, especially if it's been building... Plus, been losing voice far more often lately (verbal shutdowns) and basically my brain has decided to just go and check out from reality and be completely unresponsive several times lately, though less now off of meds. Handling changes in routines/predicted things has been a NIGHTMARE. Always has been but my hyperanalyzing situations does not help.

Reply to 🩵AKITA ROMERO🩷:

I get treated like a pet sometimes, I get weird looks or laughed at in social situations that I think are normal. All. The. Storming. Time. I need routine but I hate being bound to it at the same time. I can't use simple skills others easily get, I don't understand tihngs people call "straight forward" (which I'd like to say is about as straight as my hair). And... I've been so overstim all the time lately... every clock ticking, every electricity sound, all the fabric noise from clothes, people walking, talking, I can hear it all.... And it's too much. I've been told I need to stop wearing headphones but I genuinely go insane without.