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Ofc, and yes, I get that.. writing helps so much- And it's a hard journey, but you'll make it, eventually.

Reply to AKITA SILVERLEAF:

No, it's okay! Ramble all you want <33 I'm always here to listen. And yeah... I'm glad that someone understands. I find that writing helps me organize my thoughts. And yes... I started my journey of self discovery this year and so far it's been such a beautiful journey, although it is hard. You guys have helped me so much through my journey of self discovery and healing- Thank you so much for that <333

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Comfort characters are amazing! <3

Yeah...I get that. I'm much the same. The flat tone, not understand your own thoughts, I get it...I get it, and it isn't all that unusual for the things the brain thinks to be different and hard to separate from the truth. It does make a lot of sense and I'm afraid I don't have good control over my thoughts myself...I guess another thing I've turned to my ocs for help with- And everyone needs to hear that every once in a while. And self reflection, I believe, is a necessity for mental health- It helps a lot. (Sorry for practically rambling-)

Reply to AKITA SILVERLEAF:

That makes sense... I find so much comfort in my characters as well <333

Yeah... Thankfully my friends usually don't get mad at me and they get that sometimes I might be moody. I mean sometimes I'm really like, "Oh that's great." To like every single thing they say when I'm in a bad mood, and I say it in a really flat tone. I feel super bad when I do that... I struggle to understand my own thoughts, which is part of the reason I can be moody sometimes because I can't seperate my emotions and my thoughts or what I truly believe verses what my brain randomly thinks, which I don't believe at all. I don't know if that makes any sense... In a nutshell, basically I struggle to control my own thoughts. Sometimes it feels like everyone around me can hear the things I'm thinking T_T And thank you so much. I needed to hear those words and sometimes I need to remind myself that I am only human and need to take some time to stop and do some self reflecting <3

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Yeah she is, she's kinda a comfort character if that makes sense?

Yeah I get that...I've been much the same. Idk, I think the mood changes for me I've gotten under better control, but they still sometimes hurt my friends...I regret every time I do, and then comes THAT spiral. Overthinking all of that is hard, but I'll tell you one thing that might be hard to believe/understand because it takes a long while to understand (still struggle with it) but remember, you're human. You have emotions, they might change a bit, and sometimes might hurt someone but you're human and every human makes mistakes. And you're allowed to take a step back to breath and pause to think about things. ❤️

Reply to AKITA SILVERLEAF:

I get what you mean, I love Christmas but... just the time of year in general is just... D: But yeah! Ash seems like an amazing OC :D

My problem with school breaks in general is that I get really bored and lately I've been really moody which is unlike me to have like super weird mood changes (at least I'm pretty sure it's unlike me!?!?) and I just feel bad because I feel like I've been a little bit cold and maybe even like snappy/defensive at my friends. I mean ofc I still love my friends so much, they're everything to me, the whole world, which is exactly why I feel really bad. Which = me overthinking it this entire Christmas break 😭😭😭

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Yeah...It's...well...Idk, everyone else loves it at this time of year. I hate it. I feel it's wrong, but...Idk anymore. Anywho! At least Ash would love it, she's probably the happiest of my ocs!

Reply to AKITA SILVERLEAF:

Yeah... I totally get that- I feel that way too :(

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Yeah...It's weird. granted, I don't know...it's not even going to be much like Christmas this year...at least not the "happy happy joy joy" part...

Reply to AKITA SILVERLEAF:

I see what you mean... It's like me saying "Merry Christmas" for the first time yesterday (out loud) and idk it just sounded weird T_T