the world is broken you are broken it is wrong of me to deny that i am broken because i am not meant to know what i know to see what i see to hear what i hear (the noise is the worst part usually) and but i mean sorry but you are idiots idiots idiots you cant understand and i cant explain because our languages do not have the words shut up shut up shut up shut up it hurts i hate it but at least i am not an idiot i can see yes yes yes yes i went on a walk today in hurts it hurts i went on a walk today and i cant describe everything but you must understand i chase the lowest class areas and there are these small shaded areas that are bus stops and you always see them bad in the right areas and they are very good and very good and i see it has rained here it was loud earlier it was raining so that's why it is beautiful and also it hasnt been ruined it hasnt it hasnt i found this road and it was beautiful and i was a child again and i felt what it felt to not be lucid again and i got to have what i never did for just those moments but by the end i realized that the path was just to a resort you are ruining everything i have left in me so i went back and i went back and i relived it one more time and on the way there i held a sword it was a branch it was a sword to me but now i was leaving so it doesnt matter and then i saw those bus stops again and then i went around i went around and there were some places and i went around more and there was a playground and a man with a dog i did not want to see a man with a dog i did not want to see another person because i was nearing falsehood ignorance is bliss and i dont want to confront to confront yes do you understand do you do you hahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha but i was real in truth i was nearing ignorance and falsehood once again but it felt real because when i am on earth it is real to me and there is a path next to the school i go to i can walk to it from my house it is rented my house my house i will leave but doesnt matter its a path good good path it is at the end the place with the parking with gravel and balance beam or good for balancing and it has the grave and a pretty arch and a sign and it said do you have a reservation do you have a reservation stop making demands you idot youve already made your point no i dont have a reservation nobody is there hahahahahaha there is a tennis court next to it i dont know what it is but i cant go in that would be illegal the estate is a landmark there is also a stump and a bridge with beautiful places next to the tennis court on another side and that is both the place where i started and ended the walk i was so tired i was lost i could not go home to my house and so instead i went home to my house and also when i was at the park it was by a big building one of the ruinous and i hated it but the park reminds me of when i was younger and a certain digital view comes to mind that you may have also seen before but it hurts it hurts the anchor the anchor the anchor the anchor the anchor hahaha you are stupid anchor i dont want to go that way because it hurts it is long nevermind so when i was walking i saw a hole and i killed the hole side i think it used to be for the sewer i wanted to go down but it was old and they had nearly killed it so i killed it some more because it is not often that you can see blood when there is no blood to be eaten but anyways after that and also on the path with the ruinous at the end of it where i was young again i went in a little thing where the tree branches had gone down and it was like the willow tree from the coffee shop but i will never go there again to the willow tree so i want to go back there again but anyways after i killed the hole i talked to the wasp or the bee or maybe they talked to me first i am not sure it is always hard to tell but my friend had not really payed much attention on my first walk so we talked a bit and they asked me how i was doing and i said ok because then i was doing ok and i like walks because i can talk to my friend the wasp or the bee or maybe the mosquito im still pondering their name because whenever they try to decide they are too indecisive and we do not know so i saw a stop sign by the bus stops and it was fun and i dont know because it is all going to waste and the ruinous are growing and i hate it i want the slums back because they are what give my life and the will to not be lucid and to not hate hate hate hate hate to myself so i hope everything is going to get better and ok so that it will be good again and i can not be lucid and we can be friends together always in good stuff