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Vent:
24 Mar 2024 00:39 by
🩵AKITA ROMERO🩷
So..Kinda feeling a little useless rn...my family either wants me to smile or all hates me..Still hating cancer...still worried about a phone call..
Plus, my family seems to like to tease me about things that I'm very self conscious about. I just have to fake a laugh even though I hate it.
I'm constantly worried about my friends, scared that something will happen and I'll never know. Kinda feeling left out at times and scared of my friends talking behind my back or betraying me, and it feels like I can't trust anyone anymore. Plus being told I don't have a life kinda...hurts.
🩵AKITA ROMERO🩷
- 03 Aug 2024 23:19
Reply to Zoe Nightshade:
Yeah....
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Zoe Nightshade
- 03 Aug 2024 22:55
Reply to AKITA:
I hope things return to the way they were soon...
Zoe Nightshade
- 03 Aug 2024 22:55
Reply to AKITA:
I know... I woke up every morning excited ready to get on Grid Paint, where you were all here every day... And I miss that D:
🩵AKITA ROMERO🩷
- 03 Aug 2024 22:26
Reply to Zoe Nightshade:
Same...I miss the life, the connections, the art-
Zoe Nightshade
- 03 Aug 2024 20:53
Reply to AKITA:
I miss how GP used to be... I wish things hadn't changed so much. :(
🩵AKITA ROMERO🩷
- 03 Aug 2024 19:07
Reply to Zoe Nightshade:
Yeah....it really does seem that way.
Yeah, I hope so. Fox will be back soon, though, and a couple of others will. SSP got into his old account somehow-I don't even know how-but I hope everyone's doing ok.
Zoe Nightshade
- 03 Aug 2024 18:59
Reply to AKITA:
Yeah... I love all my friends, but sometimes I'm more comfortable with online ones. Because I feel like people on GP understand me better.
Thanks! I really hope she's okay too... I hope all our GP friends are okay...
🩵AKITA ROMERO🩷
- 03 Aug 2024 18:49
Reply to Zoe Nightshade:
Yeah...basically for me, I worry about my friends all the time, I worry if something's wrong, if something happened, or if.. well if something REALLY bad happened, or about when I can tell something's wrong, since if someone's hurting, I can usually tell. I always worry about saying or doing something wrong. Also, that's why I hide stuff so much...I never want myself to be a burden to my friends.
I haven't heard from her in a while...I know it was a really rough time, hope she's ok. I'll tell you if I hear from her.
Zoe Nightshade
- 03 Aug 2024 17:14
Reply to AKITA:
Yeah... And when you said that you're constantly worried about your friends, I get that... I worry a lot about my friends, and another strange thing about me is that I constantly worried that they are mad at me for no reason. I don't know why I keep thinking that, but I'm always afraid of messing up or making people mad/hurt without meaning to. (BTW do you know if Renn is okay? I know that she was going through some hard times, and I haven't heard from her in a while...)
🩵AKITA ROMERO🩷
- 03 Aug 2024 14:27
Reply to Zoe Nightshade:
Thanks. I know I shouldn't let others get to me but it's really hard, because all their voices soon become the voices in my head. And it really does. Plus, it can be like an infection in a cut. The first cut hurts, for sure, but the infection can linger and cause more hurt...Thank you, you've been here through some of the darker times. Thank you.