I wanted to make this because soon it will have been a year since being diagnosed with depression.

I was diagnosed with depression in May or June. I wanted to acknowledge my progress since then and help those who are struggling with depression.

I was 12 when I started to notice the similarities between my behaviors and depression symptoms. I remember the day I finally told my parents about the suicide thoughts I had. I had been physically bullied in 1st grade and got ptsd (Post-Traumatic-Stress-Disorder). I had been in therapy for about half a year after switching schools. I had graduated therapy but I had serious anger issues. I remember the day I reconized what anger issues and claustraphobia did to me. I remember one day when me and my ex best friend fought. My mom had put her foot down and I had to stop the friendship. When I was explaining to friends what was happening one took it the wrong way, and sadly it was my ex best friend's best friend. My friends C, S, M, and another friend told me if and when my "best friend" came to me they would stick by me and they did. She came up to me screaming and when I got up they got up behind me and helped me. I remember feeling trapped in my body as the fight stared. I greatly regret that day but I am grateful to my friends who stuck by me when it happened. If those people are reading this you know who you are! That was the first time i understood what anger did to me. When I had my depression I remember feeling stuck in my room and the walls would close in as my anxiety became powerful. Then I was groomed online by a 19 year old boy. It hadn't helped that I was talking bad about my body and thought I could trust him because my other online friends said they were who they said they were. So the 12 year old me thought it would be fine this time. I remember feeling happy that someone thought i was beautiful, but i also remember feeling uncomfortable when he pushed. I remember the night I had a sleepover with otter_lover, After a ton of confusion me and Midori(I still am sorry I broke you) broke up. That night I saw the contact of my groomer and had an anxiety attack. After otter calmed me down I talked about everything that I had gone through. That night at midnight my suicide thoughts started getting loud. I remember wanting to take all my anxiety medicine. I stayed put, no matter how scary that was this was my second achievement in this journey. After that it was more smooth sailing until my ex. Now I won't go into details but after that I was broken. Now I have learned how to create boundaries and now i am learning how to keep them. I am very proud of myself, it can be hard at times but people should know that there will be a light at the end and they just have to keep pushing through. Life is cruel but it is for a reason. It wants you to grow and become an amazing citizen. It will throw a lot in your way. When they first come they will seem like mountains but as you keep chipping away at it you can go above the mountain, it wont be the size as you remember it. for those who are dealing with depression remember this, You are loved by someone in this world. You were chosen to become a human as silly as it sounds. I hope everyone learns from this. I want to give thanks to Pop(Popcorn emoji), Otter_lover, (transflag emoji) Midori(Transflag emoji), Ember, S(A friend of pop, i don't know if she has gridpaint), M(A girl who is the best friend of pop), and as stupid as this sounds; All the people who hurt me, my bullies, my groomer, my ex, and my family who has and will continue to support me through this journey. And last but not least, myself.