im scared im scared because i care so much about everyone here you are all my friends and i love you all so much im scared that you'll die im tired im tired of having to do something about this because i have my own little ecosystem too i think that the depression may be spreading on to me because i feel worse now i feel much worse than i did before im scared im young im not supposed to comprehend this yet im not supposed to witness this yet but i did and its too late now i need to do something about this

the only reason im still this active on grid paint is because i go on one day and everyone's happy then i leave and come back the next day and people are trying to kill themselves its a sense of duty i can never shake off ever again. what scares me the most is how numb i feel now before when i saw anything related to death here i panicked much more but now i just feel tired because i need to say the same things in different ways all the time so you don't die i don't want you to die i care about all of you i don't know how it happened but it did and now im scared and tired