Hey i hate myself sometimes too, but you will get trough what ever your going through! Just remember we are always here when you need help! You will have better days, and you will have worse days, but it will be ok in the end! sometimes you have to puch through what youre going through. I know you may want to end it all but, for your friends and family KEEP GOING!!! I BEALIVE IN YOU!!!
D: I'm sorry you've had a bad day- I know what you mean idk I've kinda changed these last few days. I didn't realize it at first, but then I noticed that I hadn't talked as much, and I realized that I've kinda started to isolate myself from others. I spend lunch on grid paint, I spend my homework time, not on email anymore but on grid paint- I've just found it hard to continue with my irl friends, I guess I feel like our friends are starting to blame each other for stuff, and I just idk, I just don't wanna be a part of it anymore- But i get what you mean, and I'm sorry you have to go through that! Don't blame yourself, you don't deserve that, you deserve to be happy :)
I know I've said it before and I'll say it again. you are an AMAZING person and you aren't at all annoying. You make me smile on the worse days, and that's a pure fact right there. Also, I know it's hard, and it's difficult to get out of that loop but try not to listen! You are a fantastic person, friend, and artist. And not everything is your fault! Idk what's all been happening in the friend group but I am very sure very little is your fault.