because of a lot of stress, panic, and.. grief for the person who hasn't died- yet. Also because I have a bunch of people LITERALLY TRYING to make me go insane at school.. Late work because I got the worse news I keep hearing year after year.. tired of lying about how I'm fine.. wanting to break things... scared that I'll lose myself... tired of life itself.. tired of people talking about how I've become shut off from the world and how cold I am.. hating death even more because it steals people from me I was planning on visiting next year... being so tempted by the horrible thoughts that say it would be so easy.. trying not to break down every single day but failing... hating that I can do nothing to help her... tired of people trying to bother me by saying I'm pretty and almost FLIRTING (ofc it's the popular girls and boys.. every single day..)... trying not to snap at all of the annoying people in my grade.. mad at myself for so many times I've messed up... tired of trying to hide my feelings for that one person... tired of life itself..

So yeah... please no arguments, please? Really high stress level and might end up saying something I'd regret, which then I'd despise myself for. So please try to keep a low stress level, pls? (this doesn't apply to rp by the way because I enjoy that, it's a different world.)